In memory of Ella

Ella (Cocoon's One of Us) 30.05.2009 - 07.06.2021

Ella lived a long happy life. She lived mostly healthy life, as she only had small problems like over-growth of gums and heartburn. She in fact lived a lot longer what I anticipated. I have been preparing for her passing for years, since I knew it was coming, but as it came, it hurts like hell. Ella lived for 12 years and she lived with us for almost 12 years. So she had been a part of my life for half of my existence. She was there when I suffered from severe depression and she was there when I was bullied in school. She was there for the some of the hardest parts of my life and I'm grateful for her that she was. She gave me consolation and comfort when I was struggling. She was such a happy and exuberant dog. She loved every human being from the bottom of her heart and she had a lot of dog friends too. I just wish her end would have been not so rough.

Ella was never properly diagnosed, but we assumed she had the Cushing's Disease. So she got medication for that. For the first day she was a little bit tired, but me and my mom just assumed it was because of a long walk and heat. The next day she had a seizure. She could not get up, was scared and vomited white foam. After the seizure ended, she just walked. She did not stop at all, she just walked and walked. My mom stayed up all night since the dog could not be let by herself without supervision. Just before the vet came, she had another seizure. By that time, she had had over 10 seizures. She could not move when the vet came, and she was put to sleep. She died in the same grass she first came in. We had her come at the grass in a cat carrying case. It felt right that she died at the same place she was introduced when she arrived at my mom's house. I feel lucky, since I was there when she died. If that had happened when I was not at my mom's house, my mom could not go to Espoo and pick me up. I was not there when Miuku, my cat who lived with me for 14 years, passed, and I'm still a little salty about that. I have to say I miss Ella. She was such a personality. She always greeted me with such happiness and even though when she got older she was not as excited, she was always happy to see me. I'm not sure if I believe in the afterlife but I sure do hope I and Ella will meet again someday.

Ella as a little puppy.

Ella as a young dog. She is one year old in this picture.

This is one of my favorite pictures of Ella. Love the colors and the calm mood.

Unfortunately me and my mom have lost almost all pictures of Ella when she was young. But I still have these pictures. Miss you so much Ella. <3